As I am sitting here with my best friend, Emily, I am coming to terms with the infamous quote, “Live everyday like it is your last”. I have had a hard time actually enjoying life. I always make plans to go do something and then there I am not really soaking it up and enjoying the moment. If I am having a conversation with someone, there I am texting or paying attention to something else instead of giving that person my full attention. Well, I am done with that now. I WILL enjoy every day. For instance, Emily and I arrived at Starbucks this morning and she surprised me with a gift, a Lilly Pulitzer phone case (my first one). She said it was a little gift for our 4 year anniversary of being best friends and for always putting up with her “crap”. It may not seem like an important thing, but it is the fact that she thought about that and to give me a gift for it. So that was really thoughtful and I was really thankful for it as well. So just remember to truly enjoy the moments. Make memories because you truly will regret it later.
I know this may sound crazy, but every time I walk into Starbucks….I feel so, I don’t know, inspired. When you walk into Starbucks and actually decide to sit and enjoy your coffee, listen to the music, people-watch, you will hopefully understand what I am talking about. I love seeing the business people at their tables, doing their work, skyping with CEOs and managers, and then sipping their coffee as they do it all. I love seeing the couples staring into each other’s “dreamy” eyes and talking about their day or a wonderful topic while they have their coffee. Heck, maybe it’s the coffee that causes me to think like this, but whatever it is, I love that feeling. Inspiration. It helps me look towards the future and know I might be in my local Starbucks doing college homework or studying for finals. I can see myself in stopping by Starbucks before my shift at the hospital. It’s exciting. Starbucks is amazing. Yes, the coffee too 😉 Thank you Starbucks for making me feel inspirational.
Relationships are down right scary. I don’t care who you are. You are committed to someone. Commitment is a pretty nerve-wracking thing for me. So being in a relationship, I’ve had my moments of “gee, gimme my space” and the whole, “I don’t know if this is going to last long”, etc. But knowing that I have tried to push him away and he refused to go made me realize that he is truly a keeper. I had depression and as much as I didn’t want to be with him because of my disorder, that did not stop his unconditional love for me. He stayed right there and helped me out of it. I realize now that I am ready to be committed to him. This is a relationship I will not give up on so easily because of fear. I will fight through it and, I know he is going to be right there fighting with me.